This is difficult.
I really, really want to have my blog running at the same frequency it was 6 months ago. I keep getting so down on myself for not posting. It is starting to stress me out and that is not what blogging should be. When I started this blog Nathan was in Iraq and I needed the outlet to keep me going and keep me busy. Life has been so hectic and there have been so many changes over the past few months that I am beginning to think that my expectations aren't realistic.
I am NOT quitting or shutting down my blog. There is no way I could do that. But I am going to stop making promises. I am going to stop saying that everything will be up and running soon. By continuing to say that, I end up putting more pressure on myself.
There are so many reasons why I haven't been baking as much lately. We are still getting settled and trying to figure out life in the states. Anya has started school (pre-k), Eric is all over the place and is definately a handful, AND we got a puppy last week. One of the biggest reasons for not baking is that I have lost all my taste-testers. When I was in Germany I gave away a good portion of my baked goods to my friends and I don't have that here. Our small family cannot possibly consume all the delicious things I want to make.
I have been making some new dinners and will get those posted when I can. The only promise I can make is that this blog isn't going anywhere. I may only get a post up once a week. Maybe more, maybe less. But Cristine is here. Cristine is cooking. Cristine just needs to remove some of the pressure.
Just a quick note about groups.... Daring Bakers, SMS, TWD, MSCC, Cookie Carnival.... I don't know how much I will be participating. If you have to remove me, don't feel bad. Do what you need to do and I will do what I can. :)
Thanks for reading this novel and for listening to my rambling! How about a picture of our super cute Rhodesian Ridgeback, Tara, to make it worth your while? Lots of love for you all!!!
Friday, October 23, 2009
This is difficult.